Sticks and stones........

Tonight my feelings were hurt.  An old high school acquaintance who I've remained in contact with via Facebook, posted a very insensitive comment on something I posted.

Not only were my feelings hurt, but it just made the realization of future pain, more palpable.  It made me realize that people in our lives - our circle of influence and loved ones - are going to accept Carson for who he is.  They are going to see Carson for everything he is, not just any disabilities or differences he may have.  And yet outside of the security of that circle, there are people who are going to be judging and possibly cruel.  There are going to be people who may call him names, talk down to him, treat him wrongly.  I know that with any child, hurt is going to come.  Pain, sadness and hurt are all apart of this sinful world.  But tonight my heart is heavy for the hurt and pain that will mostly likely come to Carson, because of people's glances, comments, and words used.

I want to wrap my arms around my precious boy and block out the insensitivity, the foolish talk of others. Tonight I am in tears... and just a little angry.  I am going to take some time to give my hurt, my worries, my anger and my tears over to My Father, My Provider and Savior.  Lord, show me how to lovingly protect my son.  Show me how to comfort him when he is sad and hurt.  Show me how to encourage others around me, to be more sensitive and thoughtful.... teach me to be more sensitive and thoughtful.