From Death to Hope

During the last trimester of my pregnancy, facing the reality that Carson was not expected to live long after birth, God brought to me some amazing music... some that brought me to my knees... some that gave me hope... some that helped me grieve.  God truly spoke to me through music.  I created a CD of those special songs and that CD played in the operating room during my c-section.  As I laid on the operating table, I just soaked in the music that God has blessed me with.  Thankfully Carson came out kicking, screaming and breathing - and has been growing and thriving these last 18 months.  That CD has remained very important to me.

Today God opened my eyes up to something marvelous... today I was packing mine and Carson's suitcases for our month-long trip to Ohio, to receive therapy at Sara's Garden.  As I was packing, I played my "Carson CD" and sang my heart out as I was packing.  I was stopped in my tracks as I realized I was playing the same music that I had been using to prepare my heart for Carson's potential death, and now I was listening to the music while preparing for a trip of HOPE.  

What a great reminder today of God's goodness - His provision - His blessing - His hope.

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For those of you that would like to partake in the musical goodness of Carson's CD, below are the songs!

• 'Healer' by Kari Jobe
• 'Attention' by Know Hope Collective
• 'Beautiful' by Kari Jobe
• 'Restless' by Audrey Assad
• 'You Are For Me' by Kari Jobe
• 'Be Still' by Kari Jobe
• 'You Deliver Me' by Selah
• 'Revelation Song' by Kari Jobe
• 'I Know You're There' by Casting Crowns
• 'My Beloved' by Kari Jobe